i'll be sporadic
like my thoughts
/screw/ complete sentences
because
it's not
like
this is read anyway but i
always update in
the hopes of
an unexpected influx of people clustering to see what i have done
that's ok, i know i know
how the real world works
[not that way] and so
i've forgotten my purpose
for this collection of thought

i'm drawing an octopus and a tiger
not together though
maybe i should draw and octopus and a tiger together
maybe i should just give up
that sounded more hopeless than i feel
i say it as a fact not a threat

i wish i could show my emotion through art
through colors or lines or words or notes
i'm not good enough i guess
the way i feel
i can't get out
can't show

i wish i could because


it's beautiful

To do --- status:
Wolf head w/ flames and snowflakes for ski team shirts. --- fin/waiting for feedback.
Lut ( a sona, 'mole that lives beneath the battlefield' ) --- learn how to draw moles.
Abstract painting for August's room --- Bought supplies.
Prom Dress --- fix sewing machine, buy shorter zipper?

I have decided I'm going to start drawing on myself every day / whenever possible depending on speed of ink wearing off. Maybe I'll post all the good ones since I haven't been legitimately drawing much.

I'm a huge quitter.

And then I say; no, this time I won't quit.

It doesn't matter what it is. I never stick with what I say, I never follow through.

What am I worth if I never finish what I start?

Fuck.


By the way, if you're just watching me because I watch you, don't bother. I can't keep up with everyone I watch anymore so I deleted a bunch of you. Don't take it personally, and don't feel obligated to keep watching me.